hi there, i thought that i was having such a good day but then out of nowhere my anxiety came roaring in like a wrecking ball. i was feeling totally normal and then it came roaring in and it made me so upset. i try to be positive even through the roughest moments of anxiety but this was a tough one and made me really sad. i felt sad bc i feel like i can't have a regular day like everyone else i know and this brings back all of my fears of going out and even traveling. i get these glimpses of what it would feel like to live an anxiety and panic free life and then i am yanked back into the reality that i live. i see people out there enjoying their lives and they look so worry free. how do i get there? i don't want to come across as negative today but it was a rough one.
i know how you're feeling bali. it's tough because i will have a good day where i feel totally normal but then i'll get yanked back into the land of anxiety. my friends, who never really understand what i am going through, go out and have fun in a really free and stress-free way. i go out and feel anxious and panicky. i too wonder if and when this will ever go away.
Unfortunately, that happens to me all of the time so I understand your frustration. I'll go through a period of feeling a lot less anxiety which will give me hope and get me excited about possibly overcoming the anxiety and living a more normal life. It seems that once I get happy and excited the anxiety comes back with a vengeance out of nowhere. I keep implementing more alternative therapies which seem to be helping slowly. I can see that those periods of intense anxiety are subsiding.
thanks millie and jules! it helps to know that i am not alone here and alone in what i'm going thru. sometimes i feel so alone so being here, sharing, and hearing your stories helps a lot. i'm trying to take it all one day at a time.