Hello to everyone here, I am new to this forum and happy to find a place where I can talk openly about my anxiety and other issues. One of the hardest things that I go through daily is keeping everything bottled up inside because I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't see a psychiatrist or therapist and I am not on meds. I basically do a lot of Googling and try to help myself naturally as best as possible. I used to be a very carefree person, I never really had a worry or worried about anything regularly. There were the usual worries here and there; bills, finances, etc. But nothing at all that caused me day to day worries. Then a few years ago I went through some major family stuff and my finances were also ruined. It seemed like everything happened at once. Now I live totally wound up and feel like I can never relax. I also worry excessively to the point where I don't think it's healthy. I worry about my health constantly, something that I never worried about. Any little ache or pain and I think the worst. After my family traumas, I now constantly worry about my family. When the phone rings, I think that it's bad news. I always think the worst. I became this person that's basically my worst nightmare. I never understood people who always worried and now I am one of those people. I don't know how to get off this ride. Things are a lot better in my life overall, but I am scarred by everything that's happened and can't shake it. Will I ever go back to being that carefree person that I once was???
Hi Lydia, welcome! It's so nice to have you here. I understand to a certain degree because I became an excessive worrier after a big loss in my family and when I had family members go through serious health issues and trauma. It was a really tough time and now I've become this big worrier. It's definitely gotten better than it was before but I am still not the same person. I am working with my therapist on this every week and it's helping. Also, I turn to prayer when I start worrying. And I meditate a lot. These two things help me a lot.
i can relate to you on a certain level lydia. financial stress will take you on a ride of stress and anxiety that once you get off that worry and fear may not subside right away. i lay awake at night worrying about my financial stress. my anxiety is a lot worse, so i am worrying about my anxiety on top of it. it's layer upon layer of worrying and it's hard to get off the ride.