Hi Everyone, this long weekend is exciting for most people but I am one of the few that seems to dread this weekend. It's jam-packed with fun festivities, well fun for most, but not me. It may seem like a blessing that I have social outings this weekend from family BBQs to friends' parties, but I am feeling panicked about all of it and want to hole up and be alone. It's overwhelming and I don't know how to get through it. I want to scream and jump out of my own skin but instead I have to put on a happy face around everyone and pretend to be happy to be there. One time I had such bad anxiety that I think it was obvious to everyone so people were asking what was wrong. I decided to be honest and they basically told me to "relax" and "you'll be fine." I feel so alone even though I am surrounded by so many people. Is that strange?
i totally feel you on that pixie, weekends with any social activity let alone jam-packed social activity, give me a lot of anxiety leading up to them. the worst is when i'm in them. but the lead up to it is just as bad. i don't have a lot going on this weekend but next weekend i have a big birthday party that i'm invited to and ever since i got the invite its been giving me anxiety. i don't know how to mellow myself out.
i get social anxiety from time to time and it really depends on how bad my anxiety is leading up to it. if it's bad then a social event is a nightmare but if it's tame then that helps a lot. i try not to think too much about it and if i do i only try to think happy thoughts. if i think of everything that will go wrong then i can barely get out the front door. i think about how happy the event will make me feel and how good it will be to see the people there. that usually helps me.
hi pixie, how is your weekend going? hope you're feeling okay and getting through it all without bad anxiety.
Thank you for checking in with me. This weekend was a lot better than I thought it would be which was a pleasant surprise. I was so worked up about it beforehand that I thought I'd end up having a panic attack but I didn't. This just goes to show that worrying, for the most part, is really useless majority of the time because the stuff that I'm worried about doesn't end up happening. That's something that I need to work on.