hard time imagining life getting better

woke up this morning and it seems that as they day has gone on i've gotten a bit sadder about life. i've been going through financial hardships and its been really tough the past year. before that life was good, well good financially. i was always battling my anxiety but at least i didn't have financial stress. i'm a business owner and business took a major downturn and hasn't bounced back. i've been trying different things and nothing seems to be working. i'm at a loss, i don't know what to do at this stage. i'm a business owner at heart and can't imagine working for someone else at this stage but if i have to do it i will. there is a good opportunity but it's more of a long game so the financial stress will still be there for a while. today is just a day where i am having a hard time being positive and picturing a positive future. i'm feeling really stressed out and depressed over this. i've been hiding how i feel about this for a while. i put on a good front around family and friends bc i don't want anyone knowing what i'm going through financially but if things don't turn around then i'll have to turn to family for help. that alone is making me stressed out. my family isn't exactly warm and fuzzy and i feel like they'll be judgemental and that's the last thing that i need.